HAYYYYY Loves! Today, I’m cutting deep about something I’ve been struggling with rather recently… and maybe some of you can relate to my transparency . This one is all about BAWDY. Yesssss, body! *cues Pretty Ricky*
Throughout my school years, I have been rather slim with little to no curves, breast, or hips. Yesss lil’ stringbean! (see below) School has always keep me at a certain weight due to lack of sleep, stress, and poor eating habits. I’m one of those people that can not eat when I’m stressed. Welllllllllllll….after graduating nursing school, ya girl was not stressing anymore over exams, deadlines, or lame group-projects. I have gained what some would call “grown-woman” weight. Honeyyyyyyyyy! Eating my heart desires while traveling with friends, exploring Charleston, and even burning a pot or two myself has been one of my fav predilections.
Y’all, these have been some trying times mentally. Some of my favorite articles of clothing had to be donated or sold. Remember my massive sale on IG last Fall? I even had to be fitted for new bras. Do you know how heart wrenching it is to jump to the moon to get in a pair of jeans that you could fit a few months ago? If not, just stop reading okay. JOKINGGG.
Let me tell you something, depending on my outfit and mood I can go from loving my D-cup breast and size 12 thighs or googling “average cost of Brazilian butt lift with liposuction”. Even looking at throwback photos would send me on an emotional rollercoaster. In this particular photo shoot, I remember cringing when Tyler showed me the previews because I felt I looked so stuffed and gross. Deep down, I knew these thoughts were not healthy at all. Even now, it’s still slightly hard to even look at some of them or I begin to sulk on how I WANT my body to look. The pressure of this era’s slim waist and big booty is draining!
At this point, you’re probably like well why don’t you just lose the weight? It’s a constant battle of starting and stopping. Hating my weight then going hard in the gym just to turn around & feel empowered and love my curves. I’ve done detoxes, cleanses, fasting, insanity exercising , or whatever the kids are doing nowadays! Then pick up some Popeyes when it’s all said and done 🥴🥴. GET ME!!!
Today, I’m at a much better place than before. I’m still critical about certain things but not as critical as I was a few weeks ago. A work in progress! I’m learning that this frustration on how my body looks is rooted in the lack of self-love I had for myself. It’s crazy how we always hear that we need to love ourselves, but not taught on HOW to. I’m working on liberating myself by making more healthy decisions on what I consume, how I think, and what I say about myself. I am definitely not judgemental when it come to surgically altering the physical appearance. However, what’s the point if I’m still not loving and taking care of my body?
I’ve committed myself to working out 3x a week currently. I have no specific goal besides toning. Exercising uplifts me and makes me feel more in control. Shoutout to my virtual trainer, Karla, for motivating and kicking my butt with my workouts!
Whats your thoughts on body positivity? How do you currently about your self-image? Do you have any current body goals? Talk to me!
SimplyShon 
You still look good! I am definitely struggling with the weight gain myself, but I know where it came from over the past few years. The workout part would probably be easy for me, especially if I have a trainer. But, the healthy eating is no go! I’m trying though.
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One day at a time sis 💕
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Thats why i take it as my personal responsibility to hype you every chance i get. I think your gorgeous. #thickthighssavelives
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Thank you Tevin! I appreciate it 💕
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Another great read! I’m so proud of you for starting, because that’s always the hardest (You know I know). I was in the same place for a few years and no matter how others perceived me, it didn’t matter because ultimately I still had negative thoughts about my body weight. Fast forward to 2020, a month before I turned 25 I decided to “take control” I started fasting for 3 weeks and applied what I learned during my fast in my daily regiment. I now workout 5x a week but stated by doing 20 pushups a everyday. I even refused to get a gym membership because I was intimated by the equipment and scared to embarrass myself if seen using it wrong lol smh. I’m currently 4 months in and 23+ pounds down! Everyday is a new day and sometimes I get demotivated ,but the results keep me going. Take it day by day like I always say, love you Shon! ❤️
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I am so proud of you for staying motivated! You make it look so easy!!! FLEX ON EM 😜💪🏾 And honestly the gym is all hype! I rather me home with less germs and intimidation anyway! Your transformation is top notch OKURRRRR! Love you too ❤️
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HOTTIE WITH A BODYYYY!!! I’m currently working on my body as well. I don’t hate how I look now, I just want to improve my general health overall. The eating was starting to catch up on me… I would love to gain some junk in my truck, get rid of my rolls, and gain some muscles. Some days it can be frustrating though because it seems like my butt is the one fading and my tummy is relaxing, but I’m taking it one day at a time. I have to keep reminding myself that results don’t happen over one night. Trying to stay positive and motivated!
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Sis! I can definitely relate to the “tummy is relaxing”!!! I swear, all the junk I ate in high school never touched me LOL! & Yes, One day at a time! 💕
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Siiiiiiis!!!! If I was shaped like you when I gained weight….chiiiiiiile!!!! My size 12 thighs real DIFFERENT from your size 12 thighs!!!🤣 Living in FL I had no choice but to workout and stay fit…you know I don’t like to wear clothes 🤣🤣!! Nah but FL motivated me bcuz them bodies, surgery or not, looked GOODTTT… and I didn’t like being the chubby friend. 🤷🏽♀️ I loved myself…don’t get me wrong… I just felt like I lost me a little and needed to get back in shape to feel like myself again. Hope that made sense!🤷🏽♀️
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Thanks for reading sis! Yes, of course that makes a lot of sense! I’m glad you’re doing what you have to do for you! Love you lots! ❤️
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This spoke to my sooooouuuullll! When I went to grad school I was balancing being a full time student and two jobs. I never went to the gym and lord knows I felt like it showed after I graduated! In high school and undergrad I didn’t have to work out much because I could eat WHATEVER I wanted and wouldn’t gain anything. Then after grad school I saw the scale had jumped about 25 lbs and I’m like wtf. But what was hard for me is the pressure from other people who ridicule and mock your choice to just want to be a healthier you despite the number that appears on your scale. However you made such an awesome point that losing weight means nothing if you can’t love yourself regardless. That’s has been such a hard lesson for me. I now have been more patient with myself and am actually doing awesome with my health journey (just gave up bread last month and WHEW)! Thanks for your vulnerability and your post ❤️
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Thanks for ready Sassy! More thanks for being transparent about your journey as well! I’m glad you made this lifestyle change for you an no one else! You & Alli motivate me to keep going! No bread?! WHEWWWWW! ❤️
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I can definitely relate to this post. I started indoor cycling last year and It made me feel really strong to get through the workouts so I went consistently. But ya girl loves Chipotle with the white rice! Love this!!
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That damn rice!!!! It’s my sweet spot man 🥴🥴 thanks for reading sis 😘
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Whewww girl, I felt all of this! The weight is ten times harder to come off after a baby as well. I’m always between motivated to get to desired weight and accepting “mom body”, then I see these 🔥 pics & workout with postpartum moms. The stress of it drives me to Stella Rosa, fush (fish) & grits, breads & rice (can’t live without it)! I’m not excited that I re-enlisted and now have reason to meet a standard that’s not even designed for AA women body types. Anywho, you’re beautiful, always have been🥰😩.
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You got it love!! They damn sure need to change the regs..they’re so outdated and unrealistic 😒 I’m so proud of you for sticking with it! Girl i got out so fast when my ETS rolled around LMBOOOO!! Congrats again Mama 😘😘😘
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I relate so much to this post! I also grew up pretty thin, but started gaining weight when I was in college. I was so ashamed. I thought that I was doing something wrong. I was really anxious and depressed all throughout college, and I heard that stress and trauma could make you gain weight. so I just hoped and prayed that after college I would finally lose the weight and live the life that I wanted to live. That did not happen lol. No matter what diet/exercise plan that I tried (and I’ve tried many) I could never lose the weight. And even if I did lose a few pounds, I would gain it back and then some. This took such a toll on me because I was constantly berating myself for every little thing that I ate and pushing myself through workouts that I hated. Then a couple years ago, these two dietitians that I had been following for a few years starting talking about how they were moving from focusing on weight loss in their practice and moving towards a HAES approach in working with clients. That changed everything in my life. I didn’t realize how much I was sabotaging my overall health by putting so much time and effort into weight management. Since then, I’ve tried to my best to learn how to accept my body as it is. I don’t berate myself or call myself lazy anymore if I don’t want to diet. Learning about HAES, fat positivity, and body liberation has radically changed the way that I view my body and the bodies of others. And I hope it has an impact on the way that I work with clients as a counselor in the future!!
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Thanks for sharing Nia! The battle is on-going with my body. I’m in a better space..loving my curves. I’ve never heard about HAES..ima look that up sis. I’m glad you found something that works for you and that you can in-turn refer your clients too! Also happy Mental Health Month! I appreciate your calling to serve ❤️
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