Sooooo can I be the first to say even as a nurse, I was taking this Corona Virus lightly between January til the beginning of March. Getting hearty belly laughs from these memes were really the only thing I was keeping up with. We (healthcare workers) come in contact with so many harmful bacteria & viruses daily so my immediate thought was: “oh we’ll just mask up like we do any other respiratory bug and we’ll be okay if it even comes over here”. Well it was all fun and games when America was far removed from the Wuhan virus. Then by mid-March the cases almost tripled here and our healthcare system found itself burden without the necessary materials to combat this pandemic. I was constantly receiving emails from my employer and seeing disheartening news of larger metropolitan areas tallying deaths left to right. My travel nurse subscription emails were even sending listings for COVID-19 needs.
CORONA VIRUS! ITS GETTING REAL! *In my Cardi B voice* The mixture of social media and the government’s inability to even get a grip on this pandemic is sooooo mentally exhausting but not surprising ! Mmmmm let’s see: Slavery, the Tuskegee Experiment, Henrietta Lacks, the Central Park 5, Katrina..you get my drift? OK THEN! Uncle Sam is like that family member who always shows up late to the family function with not enough of whatever they were supposed to bring so you still have to go to the store anyway. Then, even after barely contributing to the gathering they take home about 5 carry-out trays. Giving little but taking the most! We don’t have enough testing materials, hospitals are taking donations for supplies, and equipment once deemed as onetime usage only is being used for multiple days. Every week the Center for Disease and Control relaxes on it’s recommendations on protective gear for healthcare workers and still requires at-risk workers to continue to provide care. Wearing bandannas over our mouths is now appropriate. Never thought I would see this day honey. The Ghettoooooo!
One day we’re on instagram watching celebrities confirm they have tested positive in their penthouses looking absolutely normal, then the next we’re seeing Italy mourning over 600 lives a day. It’s becoming a battle of the “Haves and Haves-Nots” as my friend Freddy would say. There’s so many aspects to unpack from this pandemic. Common-folk aren’t allowed to get tested unless they have multiple symptoms and met all the requirements for a certain testing algorithm but a NBA basketball player can get tested merely from losing his sense of smell and taste. Honey the classism stinks!
Although, I have not personally nursed a COVID-19 patient as of now I feel the burden. I hear and see my healthcare sisters and brothers on the frontlines reusing PPE (personal protective equipment) to their bare bones, risking their lives and families lives everyday, baring the anxiety of not knowing what’s next, and losing confidence in this bottom pit of a war. I find myself getting lost in articles of these courageous hero’s dying and I can’t help but wonder will I be next? I can say nursing has changed my life and I wouldn’t be half of the person I am today without embarking on this journey, but I am also terrified of what’s to come in my future. I have no faith is this system, but in a higher power that we will be covered.
This is the time where we have to save ourselves once again. Faith without work is dead. Can I get an Amen?! Flatten the curve. Excuse my language: SIT OUR ASSES DOWN & STAY IN DAMN THE HOUSE.
I want to shake a leg and scream “ayeeeeeee” with my friends all night long but for now I’ll settle for my camera roll of past encounters. Think about the people around you that immune systems can’t even handle a common cold. Use this time to reconnect and make informed decisions. Although, I am still heading to the hospital every week I am using my days off staying on top of my content, preparing for my move, checking in with loved ones, some home workouts, building my immune, and finding joy in even the smallest moments.
How do you feel about Miss Rona? What are you keeping busy with during this time? Talk to me! Below are some articles and sites I deem useful! Follow me on Instagram for more posts!
Corona tracker: https://infection2020.com
Building your immune system: http://sacredrootz.com